Am I Enough?- By Sharon Johnson
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong (2nd Corinthians 12:9-10 NIV).
Growing up, I was always fond of superheroes. It was not the special powers or weapons that appealed to me. I thought all those things were cool, but I mostly fell in love with the idea that someone would dedicate their whole life to helping others who could not help themselves.
You see in that time, my parent’s two biggest lessons for me were to have a servant’s heart and to always go above and beyond in a task. I thank my parents dearly for instilling those values in me because it created the person that I am today. I found my way to teaching, during a global pandemic no-less, because of them. The problem lies in the fact that I connected those values to how I could be a real-life superhero.
I expect more of myself than anyone. I am also my own worst critic. I can make others happy with my work, but I still question how much more I could have done to be better. I have many days where I question if I am good enough to handle this field I’ve chosen. In most aspects of my life I question whether or not I am enough. Everything came to a head a couple of weeks ago when I burst into tears after a meeting over that one question. My Assistant Principal called me into her office after the school day was over to discuss my feelings. The one thing that has stuck with me from that meeting is her telling me that I don’t have to be Superwoman all the time. It’s ok to just be Clark Kent. It smacked me like a ton of bricks. I had been trying so hard and for so long to be the best I can at everything that I forgot that my favorite heroes never stayed in their hero form 24/7. Most of them went about their daily lives in their normal form until the occasion called for them to be a hero.
The scripture again…2 Corinthians 12:9-10 says, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness’. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” One thing I struggle with is giving myself grace. I forget that God grants me at least that much. He understands that I am not a perfect being and that I will have difficulties. I still struggle with my superwoman complex, but I am learning that I don’t have to be perfect. By being imperfect, I can let God shine his best.
Father God I thank you that your grace is sufficient for me. I thank you for the guidance you have given me through your word, my parents, and my vice principal. I ask that you continue to touch other peoples’ lives as you have done mine.